Friday, April 30, 2010

第三十三章 . 假面人

又一单~
友谊... 好像越来越不值钱了 !!!!
什么兄弟姐妹.. 在这一刻对我来说真的很讽刺 !!!
谎言,让我看穿一个人的品格 ~
尽管你可能是未来的大律师... 我还是要说句 “ 你不配称为一个人 ”...

你的性欲竟然可以被解释成你的报复...
你的欺骗竟也被解释成为你的不甘心....
你的信念真的那么不堪一击吗 ????
一个女人的身体就能让你忘记你已经拥有的爱情和友谊~
突然让我觉得你和那个女生一样 ~很低级!!!!

是你自己放弃了真正爱你的女人~
是你放弃了我们兄弟姐妹的友谊 ~
不能怨谁 ~ 

低级的人不配做我的好朋友 ~
你伤害了我们。。
你背叛了我们 ...
再见了 .... 动物

Saturday, April 24, 2010

第三十二章 . Exam mode : ON

Aiks ~ it is coming soon !!!!
not my birthday .. not Christmas !!!!
is FINAL EXAM of the last sem in my beta year ~ gosh !!!!!!!

i hate tis feeling ... study without any confident ~ ish ..
this time i have no more motivation ~
cause no money for my coming holiday ...
i need a vacation !!!
hehe ~ Genting ..KL or JB !!!! feel like want to have a shopping trip then ~ long time dint shop ady !! =.=~

but now .. i should think of my books first !!
i cant go for shopping unless i get a good result then ~
i miss clothes and shoes ~
i hate books and notes ~
what to do ? i m still a unaffordable student ... this is my destiny !!! arrgh ~

Final Final i hate you ~
u cause my fat ...
u cause my tired...
and u effect my emotions ~

bapa mummy ~ i miss u !!!!!!
suddenly feel like so pity in malacca ~
aiks ......

Thursday, April 22, 2010

第三十一章 . Answer

I have my own answer ady ~
it is a ' SHOULDNT " .. finally !
i wish i wont regret ~
and i think i wont regret ~
must be more determine now ~

I WILL BE FINE ~

Saturday, April 17, 2010

第三十章 . 无奈

最近有种感觉~好像自己在一瞬间老了很多
这种内心的老陈 ,真的让我很无奈很不喜欢~
可是到头来都还没办法去改变什么 ....

朋友的转变...
环境的变迁...
别人对我的看法...

其实我对自己已经越来越没信心了~
真的是很无奈 .. 真的不是很喜欢现在的自己 ..
但是又能怎样呢 ?
当别人都已经不接受了 ,我又还能怎样接受我自己
孰能无过~我又没杀人放火,偷欺拐骗 ...
只是一次收了伤害过后的堕落 ,我就被列入“没能力”的这个小组里~
而且不管我在过后多么努力 , “没能力”这个称号还是如影随形 !我就这样被否定了~
是我放弃了学会吗 ? 还是学会放弃了我 ??
哈哈 ~ 真的是很难回答的问题... 可是我只能说身为局外人 ,这一年我看到太多东西了
也见识到了一个学会的渲染力~人言可畏 , 真的很可怕 !!
很想重新站起来继续未完的梦~可是想到周遭的白眼 ,我打冷颤 !!

一直以来我都很在意别人对我的想法~
我也澄清了很多很多次 ~真的有时候会很生气很累 !!!
我的脸带给了很多人对我不必要的误解 ~
对 ~我爱美 ,我对穿着可能有时会过分的性感 !
但是并不表示我爱浦 ~也并不表示我是夜店女 !!!
我只爱看戏,逛街和吃东西 !! 夜店~时常一个月都去不到一次...
可是为什么男生们,甚至是女生都认为我是夜店女 ~有时真的很受伤 !!!!
可能我就是长得很姣咯~认命 !!
我很容易跟人做朋友~男生和女生都是一样 !
难道认识朋友多又是我的错 ? 听了不下上百遍~我只能说我的个性很三八,很吵,很粗鲁..所以大家对我比较少警戒心~才能很容易做朋友 !!
容易跟人说话应该也不是个罪啊!!!

越大。。我越容易EMO...
可能看得事物多了..也没办法像以前一样单纯 !
最后我只能说~世界无奇不有 , 做好自己最重要 !!


现在真的很需要一只手~

Sunday, April 11, 2010

第二十九章 . PC Fair Malacca 2010

3 Days ...
i dint sit well for 3 days ...
i dint eat much for 3 days ..
i dint sleep sweet for 3 days ...
and i could not feel my legs for 3 days ....

But in this 3 days ...
i did smiled and laughed a lot ...
i knew a lot of cute and funny friends ...
i knew some knowledge about Projectors and Computers ...
and i talked quite much of Malay ...haha

yeah ~ i m just finished my part time job in PC Fair Malacca 2010 , MITC !!!!!!
it is a very good experience to work with many people that i dont really know and my bao bei Vee Wan ~
in this 3 days .. i met a lot of old friends too !! haha ...
sometime i feel like this is a gathering for me to find back my those old ans sampat friends ~ hehe
now .. i would like to be called as BenQ girl ~haha !!! cause i sold BenQ projectors in the fair ...
when had people come near to my booth .. i would try to start a conversation with the customers like :
" BenQ Projectors ... now have promotion and it is only for PC fair .. please come and take a look
even the staffs at there or staffs from other booths also call me BenQ .. so i think i should take tis name as well !!! haha
i dint earn really much among this 3 days .. but i do earn quite a lot of experiences and friends in this 3 days ...
racheal .. vicky .. xiao shan .. ah rong .. pui shan .. xue yi ... vincent .. jerry aka juta juta ( haha )...ming hao ... raymond ~
i wont forget those moments with u guys .. and hope that we will have more chances to meet up or work again ~ hehe !!!!

Love ~

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

第二十八章 . should or should not ?

i know that love cannot be shared ...
i know that it is a suffer if i become one of the "shareholders" in a love matter ...
i know that i m wrong if i step into a relationship that have already completed by 2 people ...

but what if i just stand still and wait .... should i ???
i never face this type of problem before ...
mummy said i should wait .. friends holding different opinions toward this situation ...
I M LOST !!!
dare not to ask you .. but i do keep asking myself ...
SHOULD I OR SHOULD NOT ???

Saturday, April 3, 2010

第二十七章 . 遗失

我又失去了一个人~
一个可以叫我姐妹,但是又能出卖我的人 ....
你问我心痛吗 ? 我的心早已经在知道他的真面目的那一天被怒气烧死了~
想不到~真的想都想不到 ...
真的好想骂他,打他...可是做不到 !!!
算了.. 可能少了一个姐妹,却多了一群兄弟姐妹~那也有赚!呵呵~
勇敢点~往后的日子可能还会看到更多不同的人~
坚强... 聪明点吧 !!! 呵呵呵 ~